June marks six months since I started working full time at Elements and time has literally flown by! As cliche as it may sound, it has been a whirlwind of stress, excitement, self-doubt, and growth.
So what has changed since some of my first posts?
You might remember me talking about needing to find a routine and wondering if it's acceptable to wear sweatpants and hoodies every day. The answer is no. I have now upgraded to yoga pants. I am basically ready to "work out" all day, everyday.
My husband and I went out for our anniversary recently and he kept commenting about how I looked. We both realized it was because I did my hair.
As far as the routine? It is pretty rock solid. At least as much as it can be when you are super busy trying to grow a business.
More recently, I have been struggling to find a new routine because we decided to keep our two children home two days a week instead of having them in daycare full time. I have to admit, I was panicking when the decision was made. While I know it will be the best thing for our children, I was so nervous that I wouldn't be able to get everything done.
Things have seemed to normalize after a rough few weeks. Keep in mind, I am typing this after having a "good day" with them. Parents all over the world know that some days you feel like you're parent of the year, and other days you just want to run and keep running.
This is my spawn, who took nibbles of all her food only to decide she wanted MY quesadilla for lunch. "Mom! Don't eat that. It's mine!". Brings a whole new meaning to a hostile work environment.
Overall, growth has been humbling. So much so that I currently have a temporary warehouse set up in my garage. While thoughts of renting a commercial space have bounced into my head at times, there is no way I want to give up the flexibility of working from home. I can literally work at any time and can still be available to my family.
Don't get me wrong. Sometimes after the millionth time I hear "Mom, watch me", I question the home business benefits.
Something that I didn't expect? The support and help that I get from my family and friends. The willingness to help me haul 3,000 books, to attend sales that I can't make it to, and always thinking of me when they hear someone has books they want to get rid of. I am truly blessed to have such amazing people in my life. While they might not understand what I do for a living...they are right by my side whenever I need them and make me laugh along the way.
The biggest lesson I have learned so far? In the beginning I was always nervous to share what I was doing. I had tremendous self-doubt and after starting other businesses that weren't successful, I didn't want people to know unless I was sure it was going to grow.
I now know that it is silly. In reality, I already knew that my friends and family would always be there for me and help me. When I am having days of frustration and doubt that I am making the right decisions, I am surrounded by people that lift me up and encourage me.
That doesn't mean they always tell me what I want to hear either. It means that they give advice, they provide sweat equity, and they generate ideas that I hadn't thought of.
So don't be scared to share your process whether it is failure or success. In all honesty, if someone doesn't support you, then kick them to the curb!