Excited but Scared.
Energized and then Tired.
Humbled but Self Doubting.
Breaking Records but Exhausted.
Growth with a side of Mom Guilt.
I could go on and on but honestly, my current status is TIRED! This week consisted of very late nights and a ton of time away from my family resulting in a massive crash yesterday.
I took this picture at 3:00 AM on Thursday morning. I had just finished a large order and before turning out the lights, I knew I needed to capture the chaos. Literally stuff EVERYWHERE. Not a single clear work space to be found.
After my family got home yesterday afternoon, I fell asleep on the couch. I missed dinner and woke up at 7:30 PM and dashed back out of the house to negotiate another book buy. When I arrived back home, my babies were already in bed and my sweet husband no longer looked so sweet. He had enough.
I talk about balance and how working from home allows me the flexibility to do more with my family and make my own schedule. I lost sight of that and was FAILING to balance everything.
Burning the candle at both ends only works for so long. I needed a forced reset. I am lucky to have a partner that not only supports me but also tells me when I am not on the right track.
Don't get me wrong...my initial reaction to his complaint was defensive and not as rational as I sound today. However, we were able to hash it out in fairly calm voices without waking up the kids and no tears were shed (mine).
I pulled myself together, walked into my kids rooms and gave them kisses on their cute little cheeks.
I don't have any answers for you or a big idea of how to stay balanced. I just wanted to share my recent failure with you because sometimes people just need to hear the truth and realize we all fight the same battles.
From one warrior to another...battle on.